Thursday, October 24, 2019

Reading Leadership Books

I am reading books about people who have long since passed. Real men, leaders, people who really made changes in the world. The good, the bad and the ugly ones. In school I just sort of brushed off these men as being unimportant, or forgettable, men who had died long ago whos memories were not important, but not as a grown man.

Now I look at them with the realization that they were necessary, valuable and had really tough lessons to learn as they went through life just as I am with both theory development and my relationships with my loved ones. I am looking to the past now to provide guidance. I no longer look at them as fictional beings, but real ones, who overcame and sometimes failed miserably.

I am taking it all into consideration now if I am to be a leader. If I am to be a leader, I need to learn a lot more than I know now. It will be difficult, but I think it is a challenge I am willing to accept.

Tuesday, October 22, 2019

Emotionally Exhausted from Theory Development

I am totally emotionally exhausted from working on Stellar Metamorphosis and trying to get the word out. I feel drained, completely. Like, rock bottom drained. The fuel tank is empty now. I need to recharge or something. This feeling is warm, but definitely I can sense it needed to happen. I needed to feel like this so that I can take the next step in life. I don't know if that makes any sense.

Wednesday, October 9, 2019

Attacking Self-Identity and the Identity of Others

A major part of astronomers and astrophysicists identity is their beliefs. So when I point out that stellar evolution is planet formation, I attack their identity. This just isn't about simple information that can be corrected easily, like, oh I measured this cut out piece of plywood wrong, time to re-measure and make sure it will fit... No, no, no, no, no. This is MUCH MUCH BIGGER.

This is much, much deeper than I thought it was, as my innocence at assuming ideas can change is coming in layers, there is yet another layer of understanding human psyche that I have reached that is far beyond what I could have ever been taught in school. I am attacking the very identity of an astronomer by sharing the discovery that planets are actually ancient stars. I am attacking not just everything they know, but who they are as PEOPLE. I am saying that their entire existence is a giant, fat lie.


Stellar evolution
Planet formation

This is by far the most incredible understanding I could have ever hoped for. But, it is also by far the most totally frustrating thing as well. I'm slowly coming to terms (its been over 8 years now) how pervasive the issue is. When it comes to major discoveries, you are attacking the very identity of people who hold contradictory beliefs.

It is not as simple as, oh we made a simple mistake. Oh no no no. It is attacking the very essence of what it means to be an astronomer. When you have adopted a belief since you were a child and you kept it as a part of your being for your whole life, and everybody reinforces the belief, you will not change it. Your identity is permanently set, forever until the day you die.  It is almost impossible to change a person's beliefs.

Astronomers who are alive today will never understand this discovery. Ever. They are too far conditioned into a major lie, a lie so big that only a handful of people on the planet have voiced their opinion on how wrong it is.

When your identity as a person is based on a deception, it is Earth shattering to have that deception removed. It can possibly make people succumb to serious life altering changes that can negatively impact their well-being. I have to now consider this as very important as I grow with this understanding. I just can't share it with everybody, they have to figure it out themselves. They have to find it in themselves, naturally and slowly. 

In other words, explaining it well and laying out the argument is just surface level stuff. This discovery alters the very fundamental notions of a person's self-identity.

I have noticed this in my own life. Literally everything I see now is viewed in a completely different light, from the soil and dirt on the ground, to what life really is, to what the Moon is and its rich past, to what rocks really are, to what civilization itself is, to why there is water falling from the sky, and why the Earth has days and spins at a specific rate. It has all been flipped inside out and upside down due to the discovery that stellar evolution is planet formation.

Nothing is the same. It is like I am seeing the world with the eyes of a completely new person, even though I am the same person. It is unreal, and ongoing, and has been like this for 8+ years.

Friday, October 4, 2019

Plate Tectonics is Pseudoscience

It has to be said. No such thing as moving plates. Mountains are built internally to stars as they evolve greatly.